Tuesday, July 15, 2014

I know that with the fitness post I inspired a few people. And I really had a hard time figuring out if I was even going to write about this. But then I decided that tons of women deal with this and it really is a shame not to mention it in my own story/blog.

I was steadily losing weight and super focused on my fitness goal when BOOM! I found out I was pregnant. And I thought it best to just silently stop doing any posts and just make the announcement once we reached the "safe point". Unfortunately just a few days shy of that point, I had a pretty traumatic miscarriage. 

It has been about a week and mentally I'm better now, physically still recovering. I don't want to go into super detail but one thing I kept thinking all day all night...what was the purpose? I don't get what I'm supposed to learn from this? 

And I decided I don't have to have every area of my life figured out and together. Because I pride myself of being in control of every aspect. Like, I'm the girl who always has "it" together. So I stopped trying to figure it out and started to take care of putting pieces back together. 

And at that moment I figured out that I'm kind of running on fumes. Giving 190% to everything and everyone around me, but not stopping to just...breath. And so my main goal right now, is to listen to all my loved ones and start to take care of myself. Because I'm obviously not superwoman.

So, I will be doing my goal posts. I will be focusing on getting my health and body back to where I want it to be. And I hope those of you who joined in with me can now keep ME motivated since I see you've been doing so awesome. 

Everyday will get a little easier, especially with the phenomenal support I get from my family.  And as for the cute little perfect angel from another planet that I get to call my daughter. She makes everything prettier, funnier, funner, happier, and easier. So onward until God decides to bless us with another little muncho. 

1 comment:

  1. So sorry to hear about your loss. You're an awesome person inside & out! I admire you for having the courage to share this with us. Things happen that we may not understand but it gives us the chance to pick up & be stronger than before. Your fam & friends, are right, you're not Superwoman & you're healthy DEFINITELY comes first. Focus on YOU. Make sure YOU are strong both mentally & physically. You are strong willed and strong & I HEART YOU FOR THAT! I'm here for ya girly♡